Tell Us About Yourself and What the DAB Means To You

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My name is Lanette, I am 52 and newly single. My life has been a rollercoaster ride. I accepted Jesus as my Savior when I was 15 but have struggled in my walk a lot of times since then. I have arrived at a point in my life where I want to live my life differently, no longer listening to this inner voice that has always told me I'm not good enough and whenever I have made a mistake that I can't ever be good enough to be loved and accepted by God and by people. I know that voice is not from God, and I recognize that I am loved so much and Jesus loved me enough to die for me while I have been in sin. I struggle with a defeated attitude because I feel that I always have to learn things the hard way.
I know that I am growing because I am struggling. I have a rough time trusting God, I do in word but not always in deed. I have never lived a single life and I feel that I need to learn to let my relationship with Jesus be enough for me. I went right from high school into a 17 year marriage which should have been for life, then when that ended I went right on to another relationship, and then marriage that should have never been, and then when that ended after 4 years, I jumped right into a relationship again and after another 8 years of marriage which ended in January of this year. I have felt myself almost in a panic to find a good man. Because I am feeling so lonely. I have all the head knowledge that I'm not ready for another relationship until I become healed of the things that I have let control my life rather then letting God be in control. Touch has been something that I have craved since there was hardly any of that in my last marriage. I want that to be replaced by a right relationship with Jesus again and not allow my circumstances to control me. I long to find a good Christian man again, but recognize that my healing needs to come first. If anyone reads this and feels a urge to keep me in your prayers, I would appreciate it. For you strong praying people I know that the Holy Spirit will give you the insight on how to pray for me. I come from a very mixed up background, but I know that Jesus has had His hand on me in ways I don't realize right now. I think I have felt that even though the Scripture says He loves me and I am His child that because I make mistakes so often it seems that I have felt that I am undeserving or that He forgives everyone but me because I'm rebellious and not good enough. I need help because I struggle with faith so often. Thank you in advance for any words or prayers the the Lord gives you for me. Blessings to you.
Lanette
lanettes62 07/09/2014 16:33

Replies:
Servant-Ken 07/20/2014 13:32
Hello Lanette, I will keep you in my prayers.
JT 07/21/2014 04:41
Hi Lanette. I will keep you in my prayers as well.